June 10, 2009

This is another bad day in my life. This was the period that I was so much frustrated in my life. I know the reason(only myself), not even my close friend Kaushik knows it. No one ever knows it nor i'll ever let them know. I cant say some matters to anyone, thats why i started this to relieve myself. I might sound overly emotional, but this was how i was during that period. A marriage was there on that day for one of my relative(Lakshmana periyappa's son) in Mettupalayam. Also I had to go to Trichy to get a new catridge for my printer to help my sister finish off her B.Ed Record works. I woke up only by 7am that day and I had to wait for my chithi to reach my native so that i can take her with me. By the time we were waiting for the bus, it was too late. The marriage was over and my relatives were starting to leave one after another. So I decided not to go there as it is a waste of time. Then i started to trichy to get a cartridge. I went to two shops where they said this is a imported printer and you won't be getting a replacement for that in India. So i decided to just refill it for the time being. But watch out for my luck here. The shopkeeper won't send any of his boys to refill it in my house. So i had to come to my native and then take the cartridge. Then I had to reach trichy and give them to refill it and the time was 5.00 in the evening, and still i had not had my lunch. I had GRE exams during that period(duration of just one month to prepare) so i had to finish off every other works so i can start preparing. But then i got the refilled cartridge only by 6 PM. Then I came to Chathiram Bus stand in Trichy to board Thuraiyur bus. I boarded Thuraiyur bus by 6.45 PM. I really thought i should reach my house in the usual time so i can study for atleast an hour before bed. But here comes my luck. It was raining that day and asusual there was a stuck up in the road. So i had to travel an extra hour to reach my place and it was 9 when i reached my home. I finished off my dinner fast to start my sister's work. To add to my frustration on that day was my elder sister's act. I was wandering all that day for her. And she was chatting with her friend Suganya akka when i asked her that shall we start, she told me to wait for fifteen minutes just because she wants to chat with her friend. I asked her to do the work by herself and i slept off. I cant digest things like these those days and when i get angry, i would shake like anything in the world. I would struggle a lot to keep my anger down at these times. I dont know why i have never been an easy going type like others. I never take these things easily.